Well, lets just say this. Some guys are just down right stupid. I hate them. Not all of them, becouse some of them are sweet.

So I called the guy i was dating to ask him out on a date, the first one we would have gone on since we started dating becouse he never asked me out on one. 7 freaking months. How stupid. So i called to see if he wanted to go to movie. He wasnt awake. So i gave his sister my number AGAIN (becouse he can never seem to keep it) and told her to let him know i called.

He calls back an hour later to tell me "this isnt going to work. your just too dark." too dark? I guess my humor just was too freaking dark for him. So that was it. He hangs up. S.O.B.

Come to find out he was trying to get some of my friends at church kiss him. One of them said he got in her way and said she couldnt pass till she kissed him. She just turned and walked the other way, and my youth pastor freaked out and yelled at him.

Just to show you, you cant trust people. I'm not going to say i'm alright, becouse i'm not. I keep wondering what i did wrong. What i could have done to keep that from happening. My first real boyfriend. My first real kiss. And he breaks my heart. But you know what? I'll find some one better. some one who can actually love me.

for any of you who actually read this, thanks for reading.